Sunday, 5 October 2014

Boobs

Hello.

The irony after my last post was a self induced health scare. I've had a red mark on my boob for a while and in the early hours of a morning about ten days ago I sat bolt upright and thought breast cancer. I quickly switched the router on and started scrolling on my tablet all about tell-tale signs. Depending on the interpretation of the info I may have a sign I may not. No clearer the day had to begin as normal. Unusually proactive I found a minute to log on and book a doctors apt with my favourite GP. Not had the apt yet as it is this Thurs.

The mark did not get bigger yet was not shrinking like a spot or bite might. I tried to avoid looking or thinking about it but could not. The sick feeling of doubt remained no matter what I did. Of course I knew it was there and just had to keep prodding in the hope it would morph into a spot. The skin peeled painlessly away and it stayed red. Eventually one evening some ick came out of it. It started to act like a spot/bite but also looked more like some of the pictures I kept looking at. I kept thinking 'not while he is doing his A levels' - go figure this tiger mum?

I have always resented my boobs. A tomboy and early developer I hated them and denied needing a bra for as long as my mum could let me get away with it. In my twenties I was used to men having conversations with my large chest rather my face. But had no idea how to deal with it. Now in my forties I am at peace with my size. Just in time to lose them I thought.

Happy to report the 'spot' is getting smaller and smaller. I will keep my apt but the worry is over. I will keep the apt to learn more about it and also to find out when I can have a mammogram.

So sorry for being distracted and not blogging or commenting recently.

x

11 comments:

  1. Best to get checked anyway, better safe than sorry.

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    1. that's what I thought and be good to get some info for the future x

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  2. I was called back for a repeat mammogram a few years ago, I spent 3 weeks felling as sick as a parrot. I could not sleep or eat, work passed in a daze. The results were normal, apparently it was a rib that rang the alarm bells. My fingers are crossed for you.

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    1. thanks, it's virtually gone now but will still go to the docs. Maybe I will qualify for a mammogram soon x

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  3. So horrible for you to be worried, often looking online can scare you even more! Good to keep your appt. they will be able to put your mind at peace. x

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    1. that's what I thought and I really trust this doc x

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  4. Always best to get these things out. A close friend of mine is currently going through treatment for breast cancer and hers certainly didn't appear as we always think they would. She noticed a dimple on her breast rather than a lump and fortunately seems to have caught the cancer early. But if in doubt always best to let the professionals make the decision. If nothing else you will have peace of mind.

    Mitzi

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    1. thanks and best wishes to your friend x

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  5. I don't know what to say so I'm sending you a virtual bottle of red and of course it's hang over free xx

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    1. now your talking, ha thanks esp the hang over free bit - how good would that be xx

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  6. I got called for a mammogram early for some reason, I think it was fate, and had the bad news, I had cancer this year, I didn,t know it was there, as my boobs have always been a bit lumpy, they said it would have been hard for me to find. If your worried or unsure please go to the doctors, x

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